Qs & As

Last Sabbath, October 16, 2010, while attending the A.Y worship at the Filipino International Seventh-day Adventist Church, the A.Y. leader, grouped us in to 4 and handed us some cards. We’re to answer the questions in the cards. Some of the questions took me a minute to answer and most of it I couldn’t even answer. Those questions are like the questions often ask in the beauty contest. Now, I realized, I won’t really win if I grab those offers to join the contests before (FYI, that time, I wasn’t as big as this.LOL).

I will try to answer some of it now. These questions are easy but as I have said, it took me some time to answer. I categorized the questions into 2 parts. Why? Wala lang… 🙂

1st part The Char lang! 🙂

Question: Do you have any hidden talent?

My answer: Thank you so much for the question (char! LOL). I could consider myself as a “talentless” (in my own dictionary) person. People say that I am good at this and good at that but I am not sure if it’s already called a talent. Anyway, what does talent mean? If I have a hidden talent, that talent is too hidden that I couldn’t even notice. Thank you!

Question: What was the worst lie youve ever told?

My answer: I am not a liar, I say what’s on my mind and will tell you the truth, but I admit I also lied. Before, I always say that I have moved on, but the truth is everything still hurts (drama again). I lied, not just to other people but also to myself. I want to convince not just them but also myself that the feeling’s totally gone. That’s why now, when I say I’ve moved on, my friends won’t believe me anymore. J

Question: If you could change your name, what would it be?

My Answer: My real name is Shiela Gay A. Velasco. I never wished to be called Britney Spears or Jennifer Lopez. Drew Barrymore is fine but just remove the Gay and it’ll be fine.

Question: What is the nicest thing a stranger did to you?

My answer: I was in Yongsan station and I forgot to bring my subway map. I was really confused where to go (As if there are no maps on the walls. Oh, I can’t read Hangeul then.). Suddenly, a handsome and tall Korean guy talked to me and asked me if I need help. Of course, I said yes! His English was perfect! Wow, I was impressed! He gave me instructions which train to ride and where to get off. He also reminds me before he left the train. Soooo nice! J

2nd Part. Im serious this time.

Question: What would you change about yourself?

My answer: I hope I can control my temper. When I get mad, I am really mad. I can also be so mean if I am mad. (Watch out!) I also want to change my lifestyle. I want to sleep early, eat less and exercise more.

Question: Which of the 10 commandments do you break often?

My answer: I’ll go straight now, the 1st commandment, “You have no other god before me.” Material things may sometimes be god to me. Sometimes I forgot the Sabbath, too, (the 4th commandment) when I go shopping.

Question: What turns you on spiritually?

My answer: Difficulties and answered prayers. I had a dilemma, whether God really exists or not, but when I face difficulties and ask for His help, He is there 24/7 to rescue me. He also answers my prayers.

Question: Have you had an answered prayer lately?

My answer: Yes. Actually, answered prayers because he answers my prayers everyday. What’s the latest one? I prayed to befriend a certain person and God made us friends now.

Question: If God will send a thunder ball, whom do you want to be hit?

My answer: It’s quite a tough question since I don’t hold grudges to people I got mad once (even twice or trice. Oppps, should be serious here.) Can it be just me? I’m not a good servant (true!). I couldn’t afford to see a person being hit by the thunder ball just because I wish him to.

Questions, questions, questions. There are actually still lots of questions here on the cards but too many to answer them all. For conclusion? Hmmmn will you help me do the conclusion for this? It’s 12:54 AM now; I’m mentally drained thinking of the answers to these questions. Hahaha


anything is possible

Sarah, Rachel and Hannah are the women in the Bible whom I know had great sentiments about having no child. Their barrenness made them felt so desperate that they made some decisions. Sarah, in Genesis 16: 1 and 2 said that she wants her husband to sleep with her maidservant Hagar so she (Sarah) can build a family through her. Rachel was jealous of her sister, and told her husband to give her a child through her maidservant Bilhah (Genesis 30:3) so she may also build a family through her maidservant. Hannah’s jealousy and feeling like she’s nobody because she has no child created an explosive mix of emotions that blew up when she poured out her heart before the Lord.

In their time, having no child was like a woman being cursed by God. Child bearing is their career. Nowadays, having no child is normal for couples who are not ready for responsibilities of being parents.

I was inspired about the stories of these ladies whom God had blessed after a long period of time. Sarah gave birth at the age of 90. God also remember Rachel and Hannah. He opened their wombs and delivered children after some time.

I won’t deny that I have less possibility of being a mother. I have no husband or even a boyfriend and I’m not yet ready of the responsibilities of being a parent, but I am scared to become barren. It’s been 10 months since God took my right ovary and until now it’s hard for me to accept the fact that I only have one. Being a mother is the number one career I always want to be, even before my surgery, that’s why it’s really hard on my part to accept this reality. I still cry although the doctors assured me that I can still bear a child in the future.

with my co-tecahers at Seoul sahmyook Hospital. January 2010

I know I shouldn’t worry about this. I should believe that like, Sarah, Rachel and Hannah, God will also give me the desire of my heart. The Bible said in Genesis 18:14, “Is there anything hard for the Lord?.. and in Luke 18:26, “What is impossible with men is possible with God.


Preparing for Vacation

You couldn’t imagine how excited I am now since I am away from home for almost 2 years now. The 10-day vacation is not enough. Now, that I am about to go home, I am preparing things for my family and friends. It sounds easy, isn’t it? But listing the names and writing what I am going to give them is quite hard since I don’t have enough budgets for gifts (missionaries only received a little stipend).

I will buy this for my mom, this one is for my father, my sister, uncles, aunts, nephews, nieces, friends, neighbors, church members, and most specially, I will buy something for the precious and lovely kids in our place. (Sigh!) Can I just go home without these?! My conscience says, No, you cant! Can you afford to see them looking at you and expect something even just a candy? Okay, okay! I will make sure that even in my little gifts, I can make them smile. 
My mama and papa preparing something. A friend took the photo just last weekend. I miss them!
These are the B’laan kids who are staying beside our humble church. They look so lovely and innocent, aren’t they? 🙂
I’m now thinking, am I also preparing for my 1000 years vacation in Heaven? I am preparing many things to make my family and friends happy but just by being in heaven could surely make my Father happy. My family and friends are excited to see me, but my Father in heaven is more excited to spend many years with me and His other children. I paid my plane tickets going home but I won’t pay even a cent going to heaven. If I will just be a good child and follow whatever He says, I can surely be with Him. I should also be ready because I do not know when is that plane going to heaven will take off. I hope I can catch its flight.  :-)