Sarah, Rachel and Hannah are the women in the Bible whom I know had great sentiments about having no child. Their barrenness made them felt so desperate that they made some decisions. Sarah, in Genesis 16: 1 and 2 said that she wants her husband to sleep with her maidservant Hagar so she (Sarah) can build a family through her. Rachel was jealous of her sister, and told her husband to give her a child through her maidservant Bilhah (Genesis 30:3) so she may also build a family through her maidservant. Hannah’s jealousy and feeling like she’s nobody because she has no child created an explosive mix of emotions that blew up when she poured out her heart before the Lord.
In their time, having no child was like a woman being cursed by God. “Child bearing” is their career. Nowadays, having no child is normal for couples who are not ready for responsibilities of being parents.
I was inspired about the stories of these ladies whom God had blessed after a long period of time. Sarah gave birth at the age of 90. God also remember Rachel and Hannah. He opened their wombs and delivered children after some time.
I won’t deny that I have less possibility of being a mother. I have no husband or even a boyfriend and I’m not yet ready of the responsibilities of being a parent, but I am scared to become barren. It’s been 10 months since God took my right ovary and until now it’s hard for me to accept the fact that I only have one. Being a mother is the number one career I always want to be, even before my surgery, that’s why it’s really hard on my part to accept this reality. I still cry although the doctors assured me that I can still bear a child in the future.
I know I shouldn’t worry about this. I should believe that like, Sarah, Rachel and Hannah, God will also give me the desire of my heart. The Bible said in Genesis 18:14, “Is there anything hard for the Lord?..” and in Luke 18:26, “What is impossible with men is possible with God.”